You are the one whom i always call when i am crying.
You are the first person who hear my stories fr the day.
You are the first friend whom i can talk to abt everything and anything.
You are the first friend whom accompany thru msn untill 6am.
The only Nur Syazwani Bte Abdul Hamid who used to be my bestfriend.
I knw its useless fr me to apologise now cos i knw u hate me so much by this time.
I know its too late to talk to you and settle this.
I do hope fr us to be together again bt its ur choice.
I have no rights to force you.
I knw u once asked me fr a talk bt i keep staying away frm u. sorry.
I really have my own reason. seriously.
I really really hope u understand my reason.
Its not that i dont have the courage to talk to you straight
But i am afraid u don't wanna talk to me again.
Atleast, if i write down, u cn read and u no need to hear ur enemy's voice.
Anw. If you think that i hate u too, you are wrong.
The girl whom i used to caled Wan, i still love you the same amount.
Never once it cross my mind to hate you just bcos u hate me.

I dont knw if you are still reading my blog daily.
I knw you used to be my stalker.
Eventhough i share everything with u everyday, u still read my blog.
I really hope u read this post or any of ur friends happen to past by my blog and tell u abt this.
You may also think that Chu Wei replace u but no. Chu Wei is not Syazwani.
Chu wei is a good friend just like you bt it feels different to talk to Chu Wei abt my problem instead of talking to you.
Not that i am nt comfortable talking to you, Chu Wei.
But really, it feels different.
Maybe because im used to talkng to Syazwani about everything.

So, straight to my point. The actual reason is that i am a bad friend.
Really i am.
You are a good daughter, good student and also a good friend.
While me, i am a bad daughter, bad student and a bad friend!
See, how different are we?
I dont wanna u to be like me just bcos of my stupid and lazy attitude!
I still remember you once lied to ur mum just bcos u wanna hang out with me after school.
You answered back to ur mum just bcos of me.
I asked u to go home bt you insist to just bcos i waited fr u fr like an hour ++.
remember? i still remember.
Since then, i always think if i ever do influence you. so, i start to stay away frm u. i really dont want to influence u so i stay a distance frm u.
Then, u realise my changes and asked me fr a talk but i ignored you.
Wanna knw why? Cos i just cant face you.
When i face you, i will be like out of words and speechless.
I knw i oredi promide nt to hurt you and will be ur bestfriend forever
but i broke the promise and we become strangers.
sorry. i just cant see my friends be a bad one just because of me.
I dont want to be a friend whom bring a bad influence in anyone's life

Thats all, Nur Syazwani.
I really hope u understand me.
I dont hope fr you to forgive me cos i knw its hard.
But atleast understand me. i am doing fr ur best.
From the bottom of my heart, i am really sorry.
No words can describe how sorry i am
If you want to end this friendship, its okay.
Serve me right fr losing a good friend like you.
lastly, Thankyou fr you shoulder fr me to cry on. Thankyou fr ur warm hug. Thankyou fr you kindness. Thankyou fr ur jokes that make my day. Thankyou fr being my bestfriend even fr awhile.
I hope to be ur bestfriend again. bt it depends on u. I cant force. Thankyou Nur Syazwani fr making me open up my eyes wider to the world.
You made a change in my life fr the better one.
ILOVEYOUNURSYAZWANIBTEABDULHAMID.

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